STRANGER

It takes a total stranger to come up to you and say those words to motivate you even further. Yesterday was an experience. Eventhough we went there to audition but somehow I came back with another knowledge on life. I know, I'm not expecting much for the audition because I was half-hearted, I even told him I wanted to back out, but he said, "no, but you'll be the first to go and I'll make sure that you leave this place with lots of confidence in you". I wasn't the first one to go but the second. Yup, eventhough my take was short I did felt some confidence running in through me as I walk away from the camera after finishing a few lines from the script which I didn't memorise. I don't know what others think about him, but somehow what he said to us yesterday made sense. The kind where he sees us as who we want to be and not just any ordinary student. So I went back home with no disappointment, because I really did bad on that audition but somehow, I feel a little lighter on the inside. Like somewhat, somebody has light that fire once more in me. 'Do something that you want, only then will you enjoy what you're doing'. I'll be what I wanna be.

What do you want to be in future?

"We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day, or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great dreamsdie, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through the bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true."
- Woodrow Wilson

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Yours Truly,
HASYiMAH
(hashbrown)

ONE LITRE OF TEARS

I managed to finish watching One Litre Of Tears.
This Japanese drama about a girl with an incurable disease.
How she lived each day knowing that one day, she would be unable to walk, write, see and finally be bed-ridden, and how her family are so supportive of her.
It shows much more of her daily struggles and how she overcomes it.
Based on a true story, this is one of the most heart-warming story I've watched.
Of cos, I cried buckets cos some parts were just too emotional.
Nevermind about those tears, but its worth watching. =))

I had this serious talk with Shara once (well, we always had talks about life. hah). About how are lives are going to be 8 years down the road. What are the odds for us. How our thinking are going to be like. Who's going to be who. She told me about alot of things in her life. Apparently, she has got so much to share since her school started. I became the listener.

Then I told some stuffs to Fir yesterday. Apparently he's still not well. But I told him of my to-be-in-a-relationship/love phobia, of tending to run away everytime it approaches. Told him about how things were with me and asking him some stuffs which I needed to know in a guy's point of view. Somethings were bothering me and it still is.

On Thursday, while out with Sufi in the train, we catch up on things. Been long since I saw him. He's so funny can. Everytime I would talk about someone, he would ask, how old is that person and he would say they are bad people. Because why? Just because they are younger than us. Haha. I can sense that he's feeling so insecure of getting old. He even say, "Hash, 2 more years we'll be 20, that's fast sei." I told him isn't it good? Too bad that day, we were in a rushed and couldn't take as much pic as we initially wanted.

Aliff joined later on. Telling me he's going bangkok in december. Then it reminds me of the plan that Azh said about going backpacking to Malaysia. But in my situation, I doubt I can go. He showed me photos of Ng and Low. Low is hot, Ng is cute. I think I prefer cute now. Hah.
Shopping with them or in other words, shopping for them (more or less) is so much fun. Too bad I had to leave early for MCG meeting. Hurhur.

One day, when all of us are old enough, I wish for us to travel together.
One day, when all of us are successful enough, I wish for us to fulfill our dreams together.
Remember ours Aliff? The one we fantasize during school days, our joint venture. Haha. Hopefully it'll come true 'cuzzy'. =))

You know, once I like that particular someone,
I will like him for a very long time.
Though it doesn't show, but it is true.
Lets have a heart to heart talk.

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Yours Truly,
HASYiMAH
(hashbrown)