La Tahzan

Bury these thoughts.
Bury this feeling.
Bury the memories.
Fade away.

Trying to get myself to sleep but I just can't. Falling sick at the beginning of the year is not how I want to start things off. But, I am still thankful for everyday.

Ten years ago, I was this excited girl starting my Secondary 4 education. Then, I've always wondered how I'll be like or how it'll be like ten years from then on. Will I make it to Secondary 5? How many points will I get for my 'N' Levels? Will I be able to study in a Polytechnic? Should I continue Secondary 5? What kind of life will I live or go through? Questions after questions I wondered about. And before I know it,  ten years has since passed.

See, whatever decisions that I made then, whatever decisions that I made from my wondering days, has helped me be who I am and where I am today. Through these years I've learnt that big wise decision are hard to make. It needs time. It needs lots of pondering about. It needs reflection. It needs motivation. It needs EQ. It needs one to be selfish towards themselves. It needs courage. All for the sake of one's future.

I know I may not have made some wise decisions along the way sometimes, but I guess that is how we mature in life. So moving forth, whatever decision I am going to make. It will be a wise one. Because I know that, it takes a lot of time into making that decision. Don't regret. Don't think back about it. Just keep on living the moment. And just go with the flow.

There is just something about 2015. Something about it that I have been looking forward to not knowing what it is. Well, lets just live in the moment and go with the flow. Because whatever happens, it has all been written.


Yours Truly, HASYiMAH