I Smile At The Very Thought Of You

I thought this was meant for me. I thought finally, I found something that I am passionate about. But it all dwindled down when things are just not as positive anymore. Something or someone must have crushed that desire in me. Or maybe this is really not suitable for me anymore. People can be so obvious and oblivious at the things they do or on actions they made. They say to be professional, they say to see things in a wider perspective, they say this and they say that. But you see, the funny and most ironic thing is, they did not preach what they say.

You see, when I was young, I wanted so badly to be an adult. I thought being one was cool and fun until I began to realise the harsh truth. Sure being an adult, a young adult for that matter, is cool because financially, you are able to earn yourself and buy the material things that you yearn for when you were younger. You are also self-reliant and perhaps, your freedom are not as tied down as when you are younger. And then I thought, hey cool, I'll save up and travel the world and then unknowingly, you actually ended up making all the big possible plans you could ever imagine to do when you grow up. But when reality strikes, its a whole different ball game. Yea, you get to save up for your big plans but now, you have so many commitments that you barely have time for yourself, let alone travel the world or do the things that you wanted to do.  

Nonetheless, with self-believe, I know things will get better and that someday I'll find what I have been searching for. I know in life, things do happen for a reason and that if I am facing a tough phase, it will somehow be over.

To quote, "If Allah puts you to it, He will bring you through it"

Insya'Allah..

In the meantime, stay strong and take a day at a time.

Yours Truly, HASYiMAH