TOMBOY (Back in Primary 1. Notice the bag yo! I'm giving you the 'fierce' look. Hah.)

Ok, lets settle for something light hearted today. Lets talk about something from the past, bout me. The childhood days. Days which I remembered not playing with barbie dolls or dressing up but more of soccer and playing catching under the void deck with my brother and friends. And yes, while growing up, I have never liked the idea of having barbie dolls. I have never like the idea of putting on make-ups. The first time I put on a make-up was in K2 and that was only because I had a performance to perform. And I was so fidgety that I think I messed up my make-up even before my performance start. I don't know, maybe growing up in an environment with lots of boys causes me to be that way. Growing up with my older brother has always been the happiest days in my life. Back at that time, I don't care any hoots about anything. All I know is that I wanted to be like my older brother. I wanted to play soccer as well as him, I wanted to run as fast as him , I wanted to ride my bicycle as stylish as he did, I wanted to dribble the ball as smoothly as he does. Everything I did, I wanted to be as good as him. And everytime you see him, I would always be there.

Tomboy; a girl who acts and dresses like a boy, liking noisy, physical activities.

No doubt I was one back then. No doubt I like to dress up like a boy and I even cut my hair short that I kinda looked like my brother. No doubt I like to play games which are fast and fun and have lots of contacts back in the days. No doubt, people see me as a tomboy in those time. But being one, its a hell lot of fun! I was like a monkey. So active, so happy, so joyful. Not caring a thing about this world (but of cos, all children might be feeling the same as well). In those days, playing together with the boys is so much fun than playing with the girls and of cos, you get more attention from the boys as well (that was the fun part!). And so as a child, I was different from normal girls. Being a tomboy was not bad. You get to get close with the guys and know how they really are. Then again, boys at that time is too childish for their age. Haha.

I would like to tell myself, I grew out of it. Not that sports and soccer doesn't interest me anymore, it does. I can still sit infront of the TV with my father and watch a soccer match without getting bored (and I still support Man Utd). Just that, I'm a little more shy now. HAHAHA (yea rite Hash!) and teddy bears and magazines interest me more. LOL.

Somehow I was taken aback a few weeks ago by someone's reaction. She asked me which course I'm in and I told her that I was her junior in SW, and she gave me a big 'HUH, you sure not?'. So I asked, why she reacted that way, and she simply said that I don't look like a person who does sports or are interested in sports, I look more like a life sciences girl. I laughed my heart out. I laughed my heads off. How pitiful. No, how funny it was. I didn't look sporty enough for her. Hah. I love sports, just that I don't do them professionally or frequently, I just play sports leisurely when I'm not lazy and have the time. If only my parents have allow me to join the soccer girls team, I think now I would be kicking the soccer balls more too often than anything else. But yup, I have to give up on it, real sad.

So, I have had my fair share of trying to be a boy, or so. But now, I would like to be a girl, but not that girly 'oh-my-gosh' type of girl. Just a normal girl who loves shopping and stuffs. Make-ups and heels is still a little too awkward for me. Dresses and pretty flowery dress is still a little too off for me. Dressing up and looking good is still a headache for me. Shopping for pretty clothes is a major problem, believe it or not! So I'll just stick to what I'm comfortable in right now, t-shirts and jeans. And if you need me in your team for any sports, count me in! I miss being a boy also. Haha. Till then, Adios!

Oh btw, Congratulations to the dikir guys, Betara Karisma for being in the 2nd place for yesterday's Piala Khatulistiwa. Congrats, you guys deserve that along with the paluan, tukang karut terbaik and seni kata harapan!

Gonna meet up with the girls today!!! Yippeeee...

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Yours Truly,

HASYiMAH

(hashbrown)