WHAT NOW?

I hate to be angry, cos I think that's the worst feeling ever.
I hate to put people down.
I hate to hurt people.
If you want me to be straight forward, I can.
But I don't just blurt things out so bluntly.
I have my way.
And if you can't live with it, so be it.
So what if I keep things to myself?
So what if I don't get angry easily?
So what? So what?
I've been living that way since I was born, since I knew myself.
I'm comfortable with that and I'm not going to change it.
So you said things and yes, I was affected by some of it.
Don't you ever care?
Don't you ever think twice about what you're gonna say that maybe it may hurt others?
Don't you? Don't you?
And what's the policy about saying all those stuffs and in the end, asking me to forget about it followed by a simple 'sorry'.
Tell me, am I to fall for that?
Am I? Am I?
And you know what?
Now I'm being so angry with myself.
Surprisingly not with you, because I was being so stupid.
And for letting myself be angry about this.
Thank you, for bringing out the worst in me.
Is this what you want?
Seriously, is all of this worth it?
I'm sorry for being an irritant, I was just saying what I wanna say.
Don't worry, I will fuck off from now on, since that's what you want me to do.

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a
hundred days of sorrow."
-Chinese Proverb

Sorry for the use of the F word in this post.

Yours Truly,
HASYiMAH