Voice within me

i'd rather,
sealed my lips,
and have my wings clipped..
i'm never,
at ease with expressing,
when it comes to feelings..

i hate the bottled me,
17 years of being a genie..
i love the short me,
17 years of being tiny..

betraying was not my game,
and so is fame..
bottled together with fear,
drowning in my own tears..

i dream to fly like a bird,
together with my dear mister..
my nightmare will be his lies,
when he confessed into my eyes..

Dear friends, thanks for hearing my cries,
of the voice within me..
Dear mister, thanks for taking the time,
to let me feel the beat..

Credits to Dinie who made this poem for me..
But i kinda change some words..
cos initially it was "voice within the geek"..
Haha.. but it's so absurd..
Anyway, went studying with sha and shaz today..
Had fun..
Great laughs.. just lyk old times..
And i miss that.. really do..
Just the 3 of us, where nothing was holding us back..
But now it seems that i can't tell them..
Of things i wanna let them noe..
Cos i prefer to keep mum about it..
And i felt weird today..
I felt scared..
I have thoughts, stupid thoughts..
On the verge of crying..
But i stopped myself..
And console the me inside..
I love myself too much to let me cry..
Again, for the 2nd time..

Beautiful Disaster..

Yours Truly,
HASYiMAH
(hashbrown)