I'm lost. I am still lost in the uncertainty of my emotions. I feel helpless once again and i'm angry with myself for being this way. I know my problems won't be solved overnight but it's too heavy for me to bear. I feel like letting it all out but all i could do is keep it buried inside of me. I feel tired. I feel so tired. I would want a long and nice sleep. Maybe not ever waking up. I asked myself what's bothering me, but i gave no answer. My thoughts, my emotions, no one understands and neither do i. Let it be. But for how long am i to be like this? I wonder. *Takes one long deep breath and let it out* Haizzz... Somehow sighing doesn't work and the feeling is still there. Great. I'm tired, really am, but i find no peace in resting.

Went to school today for CMC meeting. Lots of things happened. I shall not reveal what it is cos i was told to keep it low. School is starting and i find no joy in it. No more late nights and going out. No more happy hours and slacking. I realised that i'm left with 4 months of my time in WGS. Great, i wanna be out of there fast anyway. But somehow, parting with the class and my friends is not that good of an idea afterall. I was amazed at how some people can turn things around. Just like what happened just now. I hope he uses his third chance well. Arggh!! Hate those kind of people.

White roses. Haha. Thanks. I didn't know there's white roses. Yea, i was born in the 18th century, that's the reason why i didn't know white rose does exists. Haha. The drawed rose was nice too. Haha. Terima Kasih.

"Somehow my prince charming left me. He did not return in my dream that night."

So no more beautiful dreams. What's my life turning into? I have no idea. So now i'm lost, confused, helpless. However, i'll try my best to smile and i hope in no time, i will recover from this emotional distress. Well, i guess i have been happy all along and now it's just my turn to feel this way. Haha. Pardon me for being this emotional and sad. I promise i'll be myself tomorrow.

I feel like dying, but instead I screamed
If death would solve all problems, then we don't need trying
But I've not given up yet, for there's still light
A ray of shimmering light lay glittered in the night.

May the force be with me and may i become stronger to face this test of my life.

Yours truly,

HASYiMAH

(hashbrown)