why not me?

i guess the chronicles of my life when i look back in twenty years time would not be as fun as it is..
this are the reasons why..
1st-ly, my circles of friends are only limited to the ppl i noe in sch only..
believe it or not, i have little friends outside..
2nd-ly, my 2 friends whom i'm close with are not going to be there for me anymore..
with their commitments with their boyfriend and works, do they have any time left for me?..
3rd-ly, i doesnt seem to be that sociable i thought i would be..
it's just in the nature of me to just keep my thoughts to myself..
4th-ly, i have no life..
i mean, not totally, but 3/4 of it..?
5th-ly, i have yet to find a hooby which i am comfortable with..
because through out my 16 yrs of life, each time i try something new,
abstacles would be there and that made me stop doing what i was doin..
how pathetic can that be?.. hahax..

Ok, moving on..
it's not really me to be so petty cos my friends are not that free..
but seriously, look on the other side of the coin..
every week, they would be busy working and stuff..
and when we're hanging out and stuff, all they would talk about is work3 and thier boyfriend..
Hello.. it's me here!.. dun they realised that i'm still single and stuff?
I guess they dun really understand what i'm feeling rite now cos it's not me to tell them wat i feel
bout it..
Well, i am not jealous here.. i'm happy cos they are happy..
Let's just say, i'm too tired of hearing the same story for the umpteen times, from them..
Ok, i admit.. i just felt left out!!.. u noe..
cos everytime, i feel their happiness, i would ask, why isn't it happening to me?
i guess my time is not there yet..

k.. till here then..

yours truly
hasyimah
hashbrown